So my best friend Shannen is going away for the weekend with the fire lot and I'm going to miss her soooooo much cause I'm use to being with her everyday and honestly shes the only person I hang around with so I can't like go out with other friends either so I'm going to stay indoors all weekend youtubeing and maybe blogging.
I really should think or feel this but I get so jealous when Shannen does stuff without me I just feel angry and just emotional and I really need to stop being that way because it's rather sad of me but....I cant stand her having fun without me or having a good time. And I'm really scared about her going aswell because her ex Tony who is obsessed with her...I dont trust him hes lied about her and him before and I know they have booze at these places and I dont want Shannen drinking a lot and Tony taking advantage I've never liked the boy but I'm not saying this just because of that reason I just dont want Shannen getting hurt and another thing that hurts is knowing that Shannen is going to have all these memories GOOD memories and I'm not in them all me and Shannen do is sit around not exactly memories it hurts a lot and thats really selfish of me because being a best friend you should just be happy for you friend and not pull them back but I'm like a lost puppy I have some weird issues I'm scared of people leaving I'm scared of people finding someone new and forgetting about me it's happened before and I scare myself by thinking it will happen again...but I should know it wont because I'm Shannens best friend but it's just one of those things thats eating away at me.
She just means so much to me
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